neidvoll: (now i want brimstone in my garden)
miata "had a bad time" jansone ([personal profile] neidvoll) wrote in [personal profile] vicedirector 2016-04-16 05:31 am (UTC)

[ She thinks this over a moment. ]

I guess so. Not really sure why, since it's not like we talked a whole lot, or whatever, but it's sort of....

[ another pause. Her voice is still distant and even, but surprisingly calm given how distraught she was earlier. ]

He never really had to be nice to me. I don't blame anyone who isn't, I'm the only visible, touchable link to your kidnapper. But he was, he was nice to everyone, so why...did he have to die like that?

Alisha...was hard, but she wasn't hacked into a million pieces. [ If any of them remember, she did seem angrier than usual during that trial. ] And Gilbert's was awful, of course, it's the same amount of fucked up and disrespectful as this, but I guess this feels more personal, or something. I don't know. Maybe he reminded me of Marta when she wasn't being a shitheaded kid? Maybe it's me not wanting to see anymore chopped up corpses and this was my tipping point? I know it sounds stupid and hypocritical.

Like I said, we're getting down to the wire. This'll make Katerina panic, if I'm legitimately in danger. She'll do what she can to protect me, and she's bound to screw something up if she's distracted.

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